Yeah. READ and you will know.

I don't even understand myself.
I'm always more emotional that logical although I do know the logic well.

Okay. Why am I sad?
1) Emotionally engaged to the wrong person. A person who I met in the club, tried to kiss me on the first day we met, asked me if I want to follow him back to his hotel room, always not in the country due to his occupation, very friendly and goes to the club very frequently, not quite responsive to my messages, would rather do something else other than meeting me.

2) I'm still attracted to asian guys but I'm more attracted to western guys now and i hate it. Why? Because they are usually not serious in relationships, can be quite unfaithful and super egoistic in a way where by at times others can feel a little or very disrespected.

3) Spent so much time and effort on a few fucking people who till now can't understand me or provide any appropriate help when it is needed. Ps: Sometimes don't give a damn too.

4) Super irritated when I tried to share my problems and people just don't get it or simply can't relate.

5) All people who are around my age and still have curfews and unreasonable constraints given by parents, fucking grow up!!!!! I wonder if you're really respectful and filial or you are just scared. Be honest! If you want to suck your mother's milk from her nipple at inappropriate times. Then, Fuck you!

Wow! Relieved. Love blogging ;)